Painting can get to be very confusing, especially when reality is so very detailed and so very all-inclusive. One can get bogged down over colors, mediums and supports. When that happens to me, I go back to basics by getting out my sketchbooks and drawing just for the sake of it. Moving a pencil aimlessly around a sheet of clean paper can be very soothing. It just doesn't seem quite as "high stakes" as a painting. I think that some of my more sublime and successful works are in my books. I wouldn't ever consider tearing them out..............my books are sacred to me. They chronicle my life, my successes, my frustrations and my growth. They make me feel calm.